by mollyhuggins | Jul 12, 2026 | Army Life, Grief, PTSD
*Originally posted April, 2026 on Substack. Reposting here for posterity. They say the body keeps the score. Tally marks through your flesh and blood and bone. Carved into your memories as suffocating panic and wrenching grief. It is a violent game. // On Feb 28,...
by mollyhuggins | Jul 12, 2026 | Army Life, Grief, Husband, PTSD
*Originally posted to Substack in August of 2025. Posting here to keep a record on a platform I control. My husband has PTSD. He received the diagnosis at the beginning of 2019 although the signs were a long time coming. At first we kept it to ourselves – he...
by mollyhuggins | Sep 16, 2024 | Army Life, Fear, Parenting
(Trigger warning: Brief mention of suicide and self harm.) When I turned forty, I thought I said goodbye to a decade of being tired. Chuckbob wasn’t even a thought. COVID was months away. // I remember when my Second Son was just weeks old, and I was a fresh mom of...
by mollyhuggins | Sep 1, 2024 | Army Life
I generally like to think I have a handle on my emotions, and I mostly do, until something comes along that slices in an instant through my layer cake of grief and loss, moving like a hot knife through butter, a torrent of tears and memory. I finished Kristin...
by Molly Huggins | Apr 14, 2019 | Army Life
I feel a little bit brittle today. It’s been all week, really. We lost another friend, a soldier, to suicide last weekend. We have other friends, many other friends, who’ve fought this particular battle and lived, but no one ever escapes this one unscathed. I looked...
by Molly Huggins | Jul 8, 2018 | Army Life
Start here to read part 1. I’ve been knocking around these last few weeks in Georgia with a low level weight on my chest and a skim coat of panic in the back of my throat, and if you ask me, I couldn’t tell you exactly why. Our last days in Virginia were...
